Reading Philosophical Problems and learning about thinkingWednesday, November 18, 202011:55 AM

Reading Philosophical Problems and learning about thinking

Wednesday, November 18, 2020

11:55 AM

Does evil become good?

The good can become bad, I have experienced.

The giving way to lazy thoughts, to lazy tendencies, heeding only the imminent desires, makes one undisciplined, impulsive and lazy and evil.

Everything dwindles into atrophy

And  my voice can't go up as much as it used to

I can't be as sound minded as I once were

I am more evil inclined to the point of breakdown at the slight nudgings of evil spirits taunting me.

 

My thoughts were that evil can be turned to good if one goes through tribulations or hardships and bears it out.

Just as water undergoing heat can be turned to gas, to steam.

I thought that evil can be changed to good with suffering.

Jed seemed to disagree with me or there was an idea that I held fast as a truth that he disagreed with.

 

But do I know it to be true.

Do I know it by experience?

No.

I don't.

 

Actually I am more for the opinion in the way I live that evil stays evil

Lazy remains lazy and cannot be converted to diligence.

That must be why I keep on thinking that I am doomed and nothing can be done to make me diligent and be saved.

 

So my reality contradicts the belief I hold.

Or I do not know in real what my belief means and is in actuality.

Maybe it is the reality I have yet to find out.

 

There must be use.

There must be pushing forward.

And it all takes effort.

Thinking right takes effort.

Acting right requires effort.

Making one action turn out right requires effort and practice.

And one single action cannot overturn a trend.

There has to be constant actions and tries.

 

 

The devil and the evil forces were mummifying me.

They were leading me towards total zombieness and no thoughts or capability but to blindly follow them.

They were providing passages to me only those that they wanted to lay before me and have me believe.

They were debilitating me and ultimately destroying me to become a trash or even worse than that.

They were keeping me from finding things out for myself.

They were complete evil in disguise of good and happiness.

 

I see that for myself now.

 

I must find out whether Christianity is effective in reality.

If it is real.

But I must abide by its premises first.

That evil can be converted to good in following Jesus.

 

But to do so means I must LIVE as a believer and not a nonbeliever.

It means I must make efforts towards that end.

It means that I must not go the evil's way when I know something is not good.

 

I must relearn discipline.

I must relearn diligence.

I must pray and ask God all these matters in supplication.

I must learn the Word and live by it.

I must go against my natural inclinations and keep striving to make efforts.

 

EFFORT IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION AS A LIFE MATTERS.

 

 

Maybe I won't be able to make myself study after a long day's of work or wake up early and do studying or exercise at once.

Maybe that would be trying to take five or six steps at once.

Maybe I should try to do what I can.

Like cutting down coffee.

Like trying to study without drinking something hot or constantly drinking.

By vacuuming every once in a while regularly without going for two weeks or more than a month without it.

Maybe trying to make the bed everyday.

Trying to do something that is right consistently everyday.

Maybe like trying to exercise everyday.

 

 

I know Joan is for Trump.

I was once inclined so but I know he is in the wrong.

I am thinking maybe I can have her see that he is wrong.

But that is just a faulty thought that is perhaps simply opinionated in itself.

I think I will give her a call though because I want to update her and reassure her that I am all right and to find out the time for the church conference this Friday on Zoom.

And keep it as simple as that.

 

No,

As of now I do not know or understand the logic of Christianity.

Because I haven't lived it.

 

One step at a time.