Monday, May 10, 2021
6:47 AM
우리가 네 마음에 대해 얘기를 해줄께.
매트.
We find your heart very incubative of evil and wrong doings. We find it to the extent of your being incessantly wrong about doing. It is not the age of forgiving and generosity to the point of self sacrifice. But it is not wrong to give and have a generosity of love that benefits everyone. BUT YOUR HEART IS A WRONG SORT.
We want to point out how it can be so wrong that it puts you back into hell fire.
1.don't stoop to generosity without knowing what it can do.
2.don't be nice without some reason
3.don't stoop to simple gestures of love without knowing the cause of it for the person that you give it to.
3'.don't stay too long to give nice gestures but leave on time
5.do not give love to strangers.
6.don't stop to say something nice to a passerby
7.don't be nice but be proper and gentle.
That is all we have to say but we will find a means to get across to you what we mean when we say your proper attitude is not the least means to get the thing s done as you want. Be nice less and be proper. Don't use heart but be means for decency in all that you do. Thi s is awfully hard for you so we give a tip. Don't spend your heart but love Leo and Lord Jesus with it. Matt.
You Gin, this seems a harsh demand, don't it? Matt.
Yes, this would be hard to do for me. You Gin.
That is all the more a reason for you to be this way. Your heart is in the wrong. And it needs to be righted. Matt.
Then mom was right. She didn't like how I spent my heart. You Gin.
No, but she didn't grasp it right. She thought that was a beauty in you despite its flaws but it is not. It is the evil in you. I want to point it out as a n e vi l. Not a good. It was a good point for you for love and that is all it need. Not be nice and attractive to others. To Joan and Pastor Charles, you owe them and so you be nice but to others you be proper. To Jennifer and Donald, you be gentle and it will do. Don't be too nice to them at all. And to mom and dad, be proper and pay for in work rather than in emotional tributes or niceties of heart except to dad when he demands a special love. Don't be nice to people but be proper and spend love on Leo and Jesus. Matt.
I shouldn't be nice to you the way I was to you, Matt, either?
You gin.
No. You be considerate rather than nice. Do you get the difference? Matt.
Maybe or maybe not too well. You Gin.
Okay. Being considerate is sayin g Matt might need a brush for his hair. Being nice is I will brush his hair for him. Matt.
I do get the point in some aspect because it did occur to me once or several times my niceties would be a deceptive thing for people and have people believe in my faith because of them. You Gin.
Exactly. Matt.
Why do you like me, Matt? You Gin.
I want to like you be cause you are right and honest and not deceiving rather than you are a nice girl who will do anything(not even 'for me' but 'anything'.) And I want to see you and admire a girl who can control her lust for goodness rather than you to seek solace in being safely conducting nice behaviors without causing trouble but nice airs and atmosphere around people. Matt.
It is the poison in me, not my merit.? You Gin Chung.
No. It is the very sweet poisonous nectar that draws evil in every kind to you and people that you associate with. Matt.
Your mom's dislike is for the poison and she is right except she didn't want to bring about a demise of a good heart but wanted a sample of it herself so bad that she didn't refuse the goods that it brought to her. Matt.
Your dad thinks a good heart is love but that is not true. Your mom is right in this but she doesn't love, she does her duty without loving or any kind and thinks for herself in all this as well as put others down for herself. Matt.
That is loving not being nice. Your putting down herself rather than herserf. But it is not love to want to speaks extra miles on feeling nice. Matt.
유진아, 나도 네 이런 면이 참 싫었어. 그런데 난 그게 내가 나빠서라기보단 네가 지나쳐서 그렇다고 생각을 했어. 그런데 ㄱ게 악이었다면 유진아, 고치자. 최 영.
You Gin,
You be nice in ways excessive but if you take back being good to people totally and start being mean that is not good either. That is being revengeful and not loving. So draw a fine line and see if it is love or being nice. Being love is more harder than expending your feelings. Matt.
You Gin. Do you get it? Leo.
I sort of do and I will try to get it. I see, that must have been such an evil in me and I took it to be my greatest merit. All this time. You Gin.
You Gin, maybe you didn't mean it right but if it comes out right, it does good rather than harm. If you run on and it does bad then no matter how nice you meant it, it will be wrong. So judge from now on by what it does and not by what you meant. Leo.
You Gin, if you didn't mean it to be good and it turned out right, then you have to repent or it becomes a lie. But if you know it does not do good and do it, then it is a deception because it is easy to think you meant it that way. You know what is good or proper or right then you do it that way because it is right and if you didn't mean it then you go to God and ask for help. If you can't keep it up then you quit the whole thing. Matt.
How do you make yourself do something, Matt or Leo? You Gin.
You think of love that Jesus put on the cross and pray. If you still can't do it then you bust out and you have to start from beginning over until you get it. But do you need something else to make things work? Maybe. You can't just repeat the same thing sometimes but sometimes that is just what you need to do. Matt.
Where does the forbearance come from? You Gin.
It comes from Jesus' work in life and on the cross. Matt.
You Gin, I don't mean be ascetic, all right? It could be right in certain times but that is the lure of the devil quite often as not. Leo.
ㅠBe ascetic when you don't love God. Not to love God more. Matt.
Thank you. You Gin.
5/10/2021 8:33 PM
You gin. There is one more thing and this may be the last thing that I plan on telling when it comes to your mind and heart. You like love to be nice. Is that right. Think about it. Love. Do you want it to be really nice or really stern and harsh but true. I think you get confused about what is good. But you love Young's harshness in love so you have the right sense of love but still you seek nice because you think it is nice and good and sincere. Nice cannot be sincere. You love but you don't be nice. You be harsh and mean and strict. You Gin, love is not love without some form of austerity. I want you to think about hardship and love more. Matt.
유진, 매트로 하여금 슬픈 인연을 맺지 말고 행복한 인연이 되게 해. 형 영.
Being nice seems so nice and it is so pleasant. You Gin.
I won't say be mean but not nice to the point of making others want you more than other people. That is not right. That is not right. That is not right. You can be that way but you stop when you feel you are being excessive nice. Not to me, Leo but to Everyone else, yes. Leo and matt.
Leo, what if I like you more than any other person because I can be that way with you and it is fine. You Gin.
I will take care of that. Leo.
Do you think I am lying to my sister? You Gin.
You Gin. First of all, we were not supposed to tell you this. You did your breaching so we are doing ours. Do you know what that was? Leo.
The pain project? You Gin.
Yeah. That was supposed to have been the other way but you breached the system and came to it first. You couldn't keep silent, right? Leo.
Yes. I couldn't. You Gin.
That is why we shouldn't say more than this. But about your sister. No. You were standing up for yourself when you had her love you. Leo.
You are not telling me the truth, are you? You Gin.
When I want to think more, more often than not or maybe always I don't know where to go next. I want to think but I don't know where to go next, Matt. You Gin.
You Gin, let's think about what you just said. And you smiled a wan smile. That is being nice wrong. But when you said the above, that is being very honest to the point of it making you feel stupid and dumb. But it is the truth. There are nice things about everything. You could have said there are things to deepen my thinking but it doesn't come to me at the moment and laugh over it but the truth of the matter is that you don't know where to go next. So you told me. That is what I loved. Not the niceties that you put on and loving those is true love because I am not illusioned about you. Shouldn't love? No. Should love but you don't like people being nice to you either. You want people to love you. How do you love them back then? Lamatt.
You Gin, you shouldn't be loved because you are nice but because you are love. And that does not make a person love you more than another person. It just makes them love you and simply so but they would love others just as much as you. Leo.
