Lord God, 11.16.2024 Saturday, November 16, 2024 5:59 PM
Lord God, 11.16.2024
Saturday, November 16, 2024
5:59 PM
The days are receding.
And the days are forthcoming.
My long distraught illusions are coming to an end.
Your constancy is seen throughout.
And there are no sudden leonardo dicaprios appearing on my doorsteps nor matt damon either.
And my life still paces under the norm that I have always been familiar with.
I lived in a fantasy of my own for great many years
And when the shades of fantasia fades
My parents more sunken and older appear next to me
And I still live at the chicken farm alone with my parents.
And reality sinks in
And what will not happen
The time slowly teaches
Live true you say.
And it's time that I slowly learn to live true to my real earnest reality.
The reality that I will soon be turning 50.
The reality that my father will not remain with me forever.
The reality that Leo is not beside me every single day in physical presence.
It's long time past that I should really settle down in my predicaments and contemplate long and hard in it.
Since I have become a blog writer, how to become a proper writer.
Since I have to make money, how to get a job.
Since I have yet to live, how to live in health.
Since I have made friends over the blog, how to maintain the good friendships.
Since I have started on a lifetime project that was initiated by my voices or inspirations as I shall call it, and because I see and feel a need for it to continue, how to continue on my lifelong project.
Since I have made friends with dad, how to be in a good reliable relationship with him.
I should pray.
Read the bible.
And read and study.
Literature, nursing, psychology, philosophy and many more.
That will be my future upbringing, training and resources for my future writings.
In true faith, I hope to reside.
And with one true God, I hope to develop a relationship that God deems worthy and happy and love.
May my life have been lovingly lived.
To the end.
You Gin Chung
DiCaprioChung.