A reflectionWednesday, October 21, 202012:05 AM
A reflection
Wednesday, October 21, 2020
12:05 AM
When I start to get those kinds of bad thoughts
I should pray
Lord Jesus, forgive me. Help me do the work right with a right attitude.
I shouldn't be scared of being punished by God when I try to straighten up or when I seek blessings in my life.
I should straighten up and try to do better.
If the voices get worse which is the devil's work
I can pray and take medicine.
God would want me to get better.
I will have faith.
I shouldn't bind myself to certain tasks that I have to do everyday to get saved because that is not what salvation is about.
Yesterday, mom has given me hope.
That I might even get married and that I might write something like Call the Midwives.
I felt that it was God taunting me towards the end of the day
I now know it wasn't. I am going to hope for them and I am going to work towards them and a life of my own.
Lord Jesus,
Help me win this fight !
Jesus,
Let me meet the true you.
I pray in the name of Jesus, amen.
6:38am
The reality is as it is.
I work on it from an objective stance.
Not thrown or thrashed about by my evil thoughts or thoughts that incapacitate me.
Take an objective stance.
Think about what needs to be done rather than I will be sinning if I don't do something or do something and the thoughts that follow tail after tail..
Relax, chill.
God does not want me to make myself into a devil's plaything.
Take a deep breath and be objective.
If need be ask mom and dad for an objective view and opinion on how I am doing.
Lord Jesus,
Please help me be able to take an objective stance at the work reality and reality before me and act accordingly.
Let me not be swayed and thrashed around by incapacitating thoughts of the devils or the evil in me but let me focus on the work that needs be done objectively and sincerely, Lord, and do them.
Please give me peace and calm to be objective right, Lord.
Thank you for this view, Lord Jesus.
I pray in the name of Jesus, amen.