Faith problemTuesday, October 20, 202010:41 PM

Faith problem

Tuesday, October 20, 2020

10:41 PM

I think I have a problem with my faith.

 

As long as I pick myself up, there is hope……

 

As long as the Lord helps me.

 

 

Tomorrow is another day.

I must work at it again tomorrow.

 

God will not make it too late.

 

 

 

If I keep having faith, Lord Jesus will turn it around one day……

 

 

 

One more time.

 

 

 

God,

 

I want to be a nurse.

 

I want to be a doer not a talker.

 

 

God,

 

Let me truly love you.

 

 

I thank you for the Call the Midwives series, Lord.

It is your Grace for me at this time.

 

 

Let me take courage and move forth from my old ways, Lord.

 

 

Let me learn to do better and be more independent.

 

 

Let me learn to be more independent while doing the works, Lord.

 

I pray in the name of Jesus, amen.

 

 

11:20pm

 

Today dad had me toss the sawdust plastic wraps from the total cleaning of the chicken houses over the trailer to pile them up.

I was again not wholeheartedly being independent but doing it for dad and 미루다 the actual work itself to dad.

I felt it was evil in the sight of the Lord.

 

 

Then I struggled with the same issue again.

 

I took a shower and forgot to even wash my behind and crutch.

 

 

 

I prayed.

 

I watched the Call the Midwives.

I felt oddly happy again.

 

 

 

Then I wrote in this diary then, I went down to confess to mom and dad.

 

I had fought this so this way and I shall continue to do so.

 

I changed my thoughts around a little.

At least I had done the job.

I know it was rather wrongly done but I did the job.

I shared the thought.

 

Then dad said my work has gotten better than before.

Mom agreed.

 

 

Talk about opinions and facts !!!

 

 

 

Lord Jesus,

 

I thank you !

 

 

I am starting to want to be a nurse, Lord.

 

I pray in the name of Jesus, amen.